The Fear

It hit me like a ton of bricks. Just after I hit register on the Rock 'N' Roll Half Marathon website. Fear overtook every part of my being.

Oh the fear. 13.1 miles. What was I thinking? Am I totally crazy? To answer that for you. yes, yes, I am crazy out of my mind. I've lost it.

You know that quote that says, "Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing game." I think whoever said that stupid quote never signed up for a half-marathon.

14 weeks. That's how long I have. 14 weeks from today exactly is the day of truth.

I am terrified. Absolutely terrified. You know all those posts where I've stated that I'm not a runner. That was not me being humble. That was not me being modest. That was not me exaggerating.

I love goals. I set short-term goals. long-term goals. any term goals just to get myself to them. Setting goals pushes me. So when I'm in need of pushing myself outside of my box, I feel this eagerness to set a goal. Why I thought a half marathon was the best goal to set is still beyond me.

Fear.

It could overtake me. It could stop me in my tracks. It could put an end to all my goals.

But I refuse to let fear stop me from doing anything. So I'm gonna fight it with Scripture.

"I will fear no evil, for you are with me" {Psalm 23:4b NIV}

"Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe." {Proverbs 29:25 NIV}

"For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." {Isaiah 41:13 NIV}

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." {John 14:27 NIV}

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." {2 Timothy 1:7 NIV}

No more fear. Okay. Maybe I do still have quite a bit of fear. But I've fighting off the fear and choosing to trust Jesus.

No fear. Just Jesus.